Cry out:
there has been so much workloads for the past one month that i have no time to seat and just write something of what is happening to me...to mention, of what lessons i am learning and failures i had gone through.
just one thought: God is good.
in the midst of the storm, there is this light that shines through, the hope to cling on and definitely, the strength to move and continue. i had many mistakes, and i have, to mention fallen again and again, emotionally. i really regret doing this, because of my own self-centered "know-how's" i have gone to the edge of giving the wrong signals instead of the positive ones. amazing how life can be. life rocks when we fail! and when it falls, it hurts! (sometimes not to me, but to the other person more.)
i am now convinced, that when we do things, even if it has a good cause, we should do it in the terms of God's strength and wisdom, and not ours. we would fail somehow, and it might be better to understand this, we fail to learn to work in the mantle of his grace and to let God work in us, using His hands through ours.
for now, i am more grateful that the Lord has given me this time, a listening heart and a mind to understand things that he is telling me...i might be stubborn sometimes, but at least...am trying my best to change my mind...and do the right thing.
i would lead worship tomorrow, i just wanted to write this part of my life to outpour this before Him and to anyone who's reading. this is my cry for help and a cry for wisdom...i know the Lord would do something great and wonderful and i just wanted to unburden myself so that He can fill me up and move me to another place...to the inner room at the temple..where i am to meet him face to face...
"Father, amazing how love in your terms are different and vast than ours...yours is much deeper and more honest, more inclined for us rather than yours...i am amazed again and again on how, a supreme being would hold a frail man like me, and would take anything into consideration just not to let me fall and stumble...thank you, that you are preparing my heart for the breakthrough...and here i am, ready to take it because it is not about me, and what i can do, because it is all about YOU...Amen."
just one thought: God is good.
in the midst of the storm, there is this light that shines through, the hope to cling on and definitely, the strength to move and continue. i had many mistakes, and i have, to mention fallen again and again, emotionally. i really regret doing this, because of my own self-centered "know-how's" i have gone to the edge of giving the wrong signals instead of the positive ones. amazing how life can be. life rocks when we fail! and when it falls, it hurts! (sometimes not to me, but to the other person more.)
i am now convinced, that when we do things, even if it has a good cause, we should do it in the terms of God's strength and wisdom, and not ours. we would fail somehow, and it might be better to understand this, we fail to learn to work in the mantle of his grace and to let God work in us, using His hands through ours.
for now, i am more grateful that the Lord has given me this time, a listening heart and a mind to understand things that he is telling me...i might be stubborn sometimes, but at least...am trying my best to change my mind...and do the right thing.
i would lead worship tomorrow, i just wanted to write this part of my life to outpour this before Him and to anyone who's reading. this is my cry for help and a cry for wisdom...i know the Lord would do something great and wonderful and i just wanted to unburden myself so that He can fill me up and move me to another place...to the inner room at the temple..where i am to meet him face to face...
"Father, amazing how love in your terms are different and vast than ours...yours is much deeper and more honest, more inclined for us rather than yours...i am amazed again and again on how, a supreme being would hold a frail man like me, and would take anything into consideration just not to let me fall and stumble...thank you, that you are preparing my heart for the breakthrough...and here i am, ready to take it because it is not about me, and what i can do, because it is all about YOU...Amen."
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