Going Straight.
"from this day forward...I'm going straight...."
that's what is on my head right now.
last year was a blurry and quite a desperation. A lot of things has happened...A lot of it was almost bad as it was years before.
I never have thought that I would be in such a mess or that,I could reach to that extent with my struggle and in my weakness. But needless to say, it is no excuse of what I have done and what my choices were.
to be honest, I am afraid to stand on my own because I have became frail and weak for that past few months. I gave in to temptations and made myself really down the pit of sin and rebellion against God. With all this, I hated every minute of it and yet, on the same situation I found consolidation on the things I do.
I made this a point to share these things to you to pray for me and for once in my life, be open about it in a way or two...Some may know my struggles, others wont...But the common ground is SINNING against GOD.
as I was walking earlier going home...I realized that I missed doing the things I do. I even forgot what I want to do. But I was reminded why I was not in love of what I'm doing...It's because I was afraid to do it. I felt inadequate...Much more ashamed of the things I've done...
during the message of the speaker this morning...I am reminded once more of God's call in my life and that, the promise is never ever going to be erased in the blueprint of my life because God has promised it and HE KEEPS HIS PROMISES. That's one thing I am grateful about, He really is so good not to cut me out because of what I have done.
I am also blessed by a friend's life...Indeed, he has grown strong and steadfast with his walk with the Lord and I pray, someday we would meet again and be part of the same ministry...As surely as the Lord lives, He will allow it according to His will.
But for now, it is my prayer that the Lord would restore everything the enemy has stolen from me...And the Lord would once again bless me and make me anew as I stand once again...And this time, strongly stand in HIS love and grace and strength.
From this day forward--> "I am going straight..."
that's what is on my head right now.
last year was a blurry and quite a desperation. A lot of things has happened...A lot of it was almost bad as it was years before.
I never have thought that I would be in such a mess or that,I could reach to that extent with my struggle and in my weakness. But needless to say, it is no excuse of what I have done and what my choices were.
to be honest, I am afraid to stand on my own because I have became frail and weak for that past few months. I gave in to temptations and made myself really down the pit of sin and rebellion against God. With all this, I hated every minute of it and yet, on the same situation I found consolidation on the things I do.
I made this a point to share these things to you to pray for me and for once in my life, be open about it in a way or two...Some may know my struggles, others wont...But the common ground is SINNING against GOD.
as I was walking earlier going home...I realized that I missed doing the things I do. I even forgot what I want to do. But I was reminded why I was not in love of what I'm doing...It's because I was afraid to do it. I felt inadequate...Much more ashamed of the things I've done...
during the message of the speaker this morning...I am reminded once more of God's call in my life and that, the promise is never ever going to be erased in the blueprint of my life because God has promised it and HE KEEPS HIS PROMISES. That's one thing I am grateful about, He really is so good not to cut me out because of what I have done.
I am also blessed by a friend's life...Indeed, he has grown strong and steadfast with his walk with the Lord and I pray, someday we would meet again and be part of the same ministry...As surely as the Lord lives, He will allow it according to His will.
But for now, it is my prayer that the Lord would restore everything the enemy has stolen from me...And the Lord would once again bless me and make me anew as I stand once again...And this time, strongly stand in HIS love and grace and strength.
From this day forward--> "I am going straight..."
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