broken bonds.
i'm really down these past few days. i was really thinking that something nice was going on with our friendship. But i was wrong, i guess i hoped too much.
we can never push people to like us, and even if we expect them to be different, people will have to choose for their own whom to like,love and accept. this may sound harsh, but it's reality. it may hurt us, but we must face it.
this has always been my dillema in friendship, they dumped you without thinking twice i guess...it leaves you hanging with the question "what did i do again?" oftentimes, it's not what you did that made the tension rises but by what the other person feels or struggles to accept...too often, that's the real cause of the broken bond.
so, what do i do now? in that season when i was there was a lesson to learn, i must stand on my feet again and rise above the circumstance of a failed friendship...and move on. that's always is our excuse, and nothing else i guess changes that reason why we move on- forget, forgive, forfeit. :-(
we can never push people to like us, and even if we expect them to be different, people will have to choose for their own whom to like,love and accept. this may sound harsh, but it's reality. it may hurt us, but we must face it.
this has always been my dillema in friendship, they dumped you without thinking twice i guess...it leaves you hanging with the question "what did i do again?" oftentimes, it's not what you did that made the tension rises but by what the other person feels or struggles to accept...too often, that's the real cause of the broken bond.
so, what do i do now? in that season when i was there was a lesson to learn, i must stand on my feet again and rise above the circumstance of a failed friendship...and move on. that's always is our excuse, and nothing else i guess changes that reason why we move on- forget, forgive, forfeit. :-(
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It isn't what you did. You are probably a melancholic, therefore you have an altruistic nature and take responsibility and whatever for a lotta things, I used to do it too--I still do some levels. This is the thing that saps me when with other melancholics.. I'm beyond this, and I wish they were too, so I'm sitting here lolling (to myself, like.. deep down inside) over the fact that they think it's them.. and.. just stop being so idealistic by thinking it's you.. I know you, melancholic, are amazing, but I'm a horrible person that's just bad an being 'interpersonal,' so become more 'independent' (even though you already are 100% and just don't know it yet..).. and disregard me and what I do..
At least these are all the things I tend to be thinking. I wish I could reach beyond these bounds of asomfomdsf but ||||.. like writer's block every single time. I have writer's block, just with people, lol! so it's either stream-of-conscious stuff or.. doublestuff
Yeah, same anonymous. Here's a personal example. Got a friend coming over right now. Don't know what to do cause I'm fried and this ALWAYS falippin happens every time she calls/wants to hang out/whatever.. I'm just like.. in my head, thinkin "Dude just accept the fact that I'm a 'drunk dumbass'" although I'm not a drunk dumbass (I don't drink), and I like to be ALOONE (which fucks with people's minds.. it even fucks with mine).. like, I come out, full of energy and amazingness when I haven't been stupid and wasted my 'people-energies' on worthless people-less things.. but people and their inconvenient times.. if they didn't mind acting (kinda literally) completely ungentlemanly-like and drunk-dumbassy-like, maybe we'd have a good interaction.. but not that that's likely.. I'd be monologuing the whole time and acting like an idiot.. and I'm sure only a saint or pure [and purely patient] sanguine could handle that.
If your friend is a woman, I don't know what to tell you. If you are a woman, try your best to get your mind off of that said event, but maybe your mind is so elastic that it doesn't effect you as much as I am presuming, and women, this is a compliment. And finally, if your friend is a guy, but he's sensitive and hurt and whatever.. I'm not sure. Guys shouldn't do this, but maybe he's had a bad family background and needs a little help on his feet, and has a chaotic, unstable, unhealthy emotional life. Maybe if you can help him to see certain ways he can help take of himself.. as in understanding himself perhaps, so that.. Well, you know your friends better than I do.
In other words, friends should never feel neglected. Are they insecure? Why? And IF the reasons are legitimate, maybe you can help. If not, there's no need for you -- perhaps a naturally altruistic melancholic -- to feel bad. If you need your space, which I know I need plenty of, no friend would make grief over that. As another example--I haven't talked with what I'd consider to be my best friend.. in almost 3 weeks. Maybe he doesn't care for my company these days - and vis-versa - but this is oddly enough, common between us, and when we hang out, we're still insane and crazy. So, whatever.
OH NO. Don't tell me I'm posting on really old blog entries. :|, it says 9:43AM. I assumed today. Wtf.
OH GAWD, NOVEMBER 2006. NOW COMES THE QUESTION OF HOW I GOT TO THIS PAGE IN THE FIRST PLACE, OH GAWD.