wanted:lovelife!
it would be stupid of me posting something like this to be read by all...hahaha.
but desperate times calls for desperate measures! (kidding aside!)
if there was one thing i'm desperate that would be for someone that would accept me as who i am...flawed, imperfect and even, *yawning* bored some times.
there has been alot of things that bugs me so much that i just want to shout out and then be silent for a day... (yeah right...like yesterday[20.06.2006])
i just hope life would give that anytime now...(too desperate...) someone close...aproachable...not too tight...never too loose in attachments...
i don't even know what i'm writing...i've gone over the edge i guess!!! (highly recommended, gone over the edge cartoons by disney! [nice lessons!])
for a serious thought here...
life has so many things to give and uncertain things to snatch when you almost want it for yourself. we seldom think that it's there and never be gone for awhile. we expect things would turn out right, perfectly right and then *puff* it's gone...not for a while but perhaps for a lifetime.
like many, i'm afraid to attach myself to someone and on something because i'm afraid to be hurt and be in pain...i could stand both, but it always leave a mark in your soul that even men and women alike dare not speak of again (let me clear this out--> i'm talking about being heartbroken!)
nevertheless, as one author says... part of having the desire is to experience pain and discontentment together with joy, being loved and in most cases, accepted. it's the two-sided coin dillema when we want something...especially when it comes to having something called "LOVE".
"yeah, right!" many of us would say...but what the heck...they don't know what personally many of us are feeling when we are alone and that we feel there's no one to console us...even dare to share the pain with us.
i'm starting to fall now...fall apart, not with someone...don't want to...hate to...because it always is the same outcome...if you wanna know what's that... ASK ME...?
let me close this one with one question: who would ever dare love someone when all he is boring...haha...that's for me to find out...wahehe...definitely!
but desperate times calls for desperate measures! (kidding aside!)
if there was one thing i'm desperate that would be for someone that would accept me as who i am...flawed, imperfect and even, *yawning* bored some times.
there has been alot of things that bugs me so much that i just want to shout out and then be silent for a day... (yeah right...like yesterday[20.06.2006])
i just hope life would give that anytime now...(too desperate...) someone close...aproachable...not too tight...never too loose in attachments...
i don't even know what i'm writing...i've gone over the edge i guess!!! (highly recommended, gone over the edge cartoons by disney! [nice lessons!])
for a serious thought here...
life has so many things to give and uncertain things to snatch when you almost want it for yourself. we seldom think that it's there and never be gone for awhile. we expect things would turn out right, perfectly right and then *puff* it's gone...not for a while but perhaps for a lifetime.
like many, i'm afraid to attach myself to someone and on something because i'm afraid to be hurt and be in pain...i could stand both, but it always leave a mark in your soul that even men and women alike dare not speak of again (let me clear this out--> i'm talking about being heartbroken!)
nevertheless, as one author says... part of having the desire is to experience pain and discontentment together with joy, being loved and in most cases, accepted. it's the two-sided coin dillema when we want something...especially when it comes to having something called "LOVE".
"yeah, right!" many of us would say...but what the heck...they don't know what personally many of us are feeling when we are alone and that we feel there's no one to console us...even dare to share the pain with us.
i'm starting to fall now...fall apart, not with someone...don't want to...hate to...because it always is the same outcome...if you wanna know what's that... ASK ME...?
let me close this one with one question: who would ever dare love someone when all he is boring...haha...that's for me to find out...wahehe...definitely!
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