digging deeper
my situation has become more and more complicated. i am digging deeper to the dump instead of the word. i am more inclined to bend more and more of my standards and lifestyle.
but with this, i am also rising up to my gifts and my calling...it's indeed a choice and a battle everyday when the carnality of my being strikes and the spiritual comes gushing in. indeed, the reality of serving two masters are not just for money and GOD but other things as well.
i love to fly like the eagles and see GOD work wonders...that i may speak forth HIS message. i want to rise from my situation and see HIS hands take away the pain, hatred and the lust of the body.
i know like paul, i am more seeing this as a torn that i may not trust in my own confidence, wisdom and even in my own capablities but to learn to trust in the inseperable power and authority of CHRIST's blood and message that bring forth wisdom and knowledge, victory and freedom, change and acceleration.
i am now more fearful instead of excited because i am seeing myself more unworthy to the call set before me, more inclined to sin that to GOD's way...more weak in the faith rather than strong in the LORD.
i am seeing myself in the portrayal of Jeremiah in the well, bring a rope and telling the people of what happens to people who disobeys the LORD....
but i have hope that GOD is setting straight these things because he has a purpose and a plan for me. i have accepted the prophecies set before me and i will see the LORD fulfilling this destiny. i just need to make an effort to breakforth from the bondage and abound in the grace to govern and speak forth the message.
i am praying too but not that hard...many times my mind would just stroll on the ideas of what HE has set before me and what he will be doing this time around...and that's what bothers me- how can GOD do these things when my inclination is weak and in despair again and again.
**** till here, i'll post more later this week.
but with this, i am also rising up to my gifts and my calling...it's indeed a choice and a battle everyday when the carnality of my being strikes and the spiritual comes gushing in. indeed, the reality of serving two masters are not just for money and GOD but other things as well.
i love to fly like the eagles and see GOD work wonders...that i may speak forth HIS message. i want to rise from my situation and see HIS hands take away the pain, hatred and the lust of the body.
i know like paul, i am more seeing this as a torn that i may not trust in my own confidence, wisdom and even in my own capablities but to learn to trust in the inseperable power and authority of CHRIST's blood and message that bring forth wisdom and knowledge, victory and freedom, change and acceleration.
i am now more fearful instead of excited because i am seeing myself more unworthy to the call set before me, more inclined to sin that to GOD's way...more weak in the faith rather than strong in the LORD.
i am seeing myself in the portrayal of Jeremiah in the well, bring a rope and telling the people of what happens to people who disobeys the LORD....
but i have hope that GOD is setting straight these things because he has a purpose and a plan for me. i have accepted the prophecies set before me and i will see the LORD fulfilling this destiny. i just need to make an effort to breakforth from the bondage and abound in the grace to govern and speak forth the message.
i am praying too but not that hard...many times my mind would just stroll on the ideas of what HE has set before me and what he will be doing this time around...and that's what bothers me- how can GOD do these things when my inclination is weak and in despair again and again.
**** till here, i'll post more later this week.
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